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Tuesday, 09 February 2010

My Top Three Female Archetypes

In an effort to define once and for all the image that I want to portray for the rest of my life as I abandon youthful fashion experimentation, I Googled "female archetypes." I took the first quiz on the list, which compares one's personality (defined by overall answers) with mythological goddesses.

At the end of the quiz, one is invited to guess which type of goddess she resembles most closely; I thought I was a Spring Maiden (Persephone, Igraine), or the Lady of the Hearth (Brigid, Hestia, Vesta). The results however, showed that those two choices are ranked #4 and #5, respectively.

This is my #1 result:

Archetype #1: Beautiful Enchantress (Aphrodite, Freya)

I didn't expect this at all. I honestly thought I was the kidnapped-to-hell Persephone, or some other playful, trouble-making deity. I was certain that Aphrodite and other beauty and love goddesses had to be #4 or lower.

The discrepancy between my guesses and the actual results might just be a matter of which aspects of myself I focus on, in contrast to my actual behavior. For many years, I'd been paying more attention to my limitations rather than my strengths, to my needs rather than my blessings... (yeah well this blog is helping me get better)

If the quiz is to be (made) valid (in my mind), I guess I'll have to correctly identify my Aphrodite/Freya qualities. And to fulfill my fashion goal of expressing myself, I must portray this archetype faithfully (image-wise; image = looks+personality). I also believe that a person who is not attractive by traditional standards can also receive this result; after all, the quiz didn't ask for pictures, it simply judged the personality. In this case, the woman simply values beauty and love more than anything else.

Now that I think about it, indeed, among people that I know, I seem to be the one who has the most romantic temperament, even though my expectations and dreams of love had been corrupted by an evil, narcissistic, so-"realistic"-that-he-killed-his-emotions-and-imagination guy. Of course, there are other romantic girls as well; I mean to say that I'm most expressive of this quality. (My best friend is, as well.)

I recall a retreat in which we were asked to make a visual representation of our top five goals for the next five years. Everyone drew cars, houses, diplomas, while my drawing was completely whimsical and romantic. I drew a smiling heart with wings and clouds underneath (an angel heart), and there was a wine bottle and a rose nearby... I explained I just wanted to be "drunk on life," to learn to bring smiles to people's faces, to know how to warm their hearts. This is not to say that I don't have materialistic goals (I had been reading up on financial management and businesses five years ago, and I've moved on) - it's just that I value spirit and emotions more.

Beauty... Everyone has beauty in them... Discover it, uncover it, develop it, nurture it...
Health is beauty; and so is a joyful heart. A talent for concocting dreams and illusions... and meaningful art...
A compassionate soul...

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"Romance is a lifestyle!"

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comment: this has been therapeutic, lol. I'm going to run with Venus for awhile...

Archetypes #2 and #3 will each follow in separate posts. Care to guess which of the following make it?
- Spear Maiden (the Morrigan, Athena, Sif)
- Lady Luck (Fortuna, Tyche, Lamia)
- Respected Arbiter (Themis, Maat, Syn)
- Wild Woman (Artemis, Diana, Kali)
- Wise Crone (Hecate, Ceridwen)
- Sovereign Queen (Rhiannon, Hera, Isis)
- Earth Mother (Gaia, Demeter, Danu)

Do you want to take the quiz? What are your results? Do you agree with them? Like them?

Thursday, 04 February 2010

Diet =(

Omg omg omg
I seriously have to go on the right diet again, because my *cough cough* colon has begun to feel queasy again. Goodbye, pizza. Goodbye, sandwiches (omg I didn't really have enough of you yet ). Goodbye, random food combinations.

It was so easy to eat you. When I feel hungry, I'd reach for anything that's available. I eat until I feel full. I cook just about anything I can think of (as long as I have recipes, of course). No restrictions. I'd just eat anything I want. Anything at all.

Juice (acid), potatoes (carbs), beef (protein), ice cream (sugar)... I would love to be able to consume you all within an hour. Or two, if I feel slow and lazy.

But, guess what? My body can't handle all of you at once. I have to eat lots of --- *gasp* fiber... And follow a strict schedule... There is no "freedom" in this kind of diet. I hate diets. But I need one of them. A tummy-friendly one, in particular.

So. Starting tomorrow, I'll have to have breakfast between 6-8am. Only fruits and fruit juices. Either acidic or alkaline. Never mix both.

(Apple is always the first fruit ever that comes to mind when I think of "fruit." I wonder why.)

10am - Nuts. Almonds.

12nn. Lunch. The problem. I always skip lunch. But I have to have lunch. When I think of having lunch, I always think: sandwich. Bad for me. Ugh. SALAD, girl, Salad!!!

Do you hear that sound? That's me whimpering.

That is just unacceptable! LOL!

Okay I will find recipes of more interesting salads... Like... the one that has tiny orange slices in it. Oriental salad, I think... Hmmm... Fruit crepes on the side. For lunch I can have soup too, as long as it's carbs soup, LoL... Oatmeal, cereal... LoL... Potato soup... Carbs all. No meat or acid allowed.

Then afternoon snacks: green juice, or avocado. Or nuts, again.

Dinner: Fiber (hello again, salad), Protein. No carbs or acids allowed.

That's a LOT of changes at once! How am I gonna keep up??? Hope I don't "burn out" or forget!

I really really really really want a healthy body! So I'm going to try my best to stick to this one! Okay!

And I will define my capacity for commitment by this!

Friday, 29 January 2010

My Little Summary of the Different Types of "Faith"

Fundies: "God... is REAL!!! And he has laws! And if you don't follow them you will be sent to hell! And I will kill you if you doubt my word!"

Atheists: "Meh. People are taking their imaginations too seriously."

Satanists: "Actually there's this force/energy that we could use, but we wouldn't call it God."

Me: "Er, whatever, you people... I am just geekily enjoying this song."

Astrologer: "That song is about Pluto, isn't it. Indescribable, uncontainable... the life force, sexual energy, kundalini, mysterium tremendum, etc...."